Dear S,
I can't believe I am saying this but we actually met again. We met again this summer, but I must admit I was nervous. I mean it's been three years since! Do you remember? Oh how can you forget, it was a summer to remember. I do have many regrets, I don't think we knew how to act. You stayed silent and I did too. Should we have talked about it? Should I have asked you about the last letter you sent? I wish I did now but what good is in regret. I mean, look at it from my point of view, you've changed so much and now I don't even know you. Who have you become? What happened to my friend? Let me tell you what happened to me and I hope you will comprehend. I was so nervous to see you, I think I had butterflies too. I didn't know what to do, should I hug or should I just smile and say nice to see you, my old friend. Of course we hugged, after everything that is the least we could do. When I first saw you, I forgot everything I had planned to do. You opened your arms and I just couldn't wait to hug you. Ah, the relief from being in the arms of someone I knew. You kept smiling and shed some tears too. I can't imagine what you thought that night, and I wish I do. I didn't see your kid till the second day but he was so adorable I love him too. Seeing your wife was interesting, and I don't think we'll be friends soon. I thought things would be like before, I call you but you ignored. You didn't answer my calls and didn't seem interested in anything I said. You were mainly cold and dry but was that how you dealt? I decided to leave you alone and just let things go, which I did. Fast forward to the day I left, I wanted my pictures from the summer before. Did you really not know where they went? I think you didn't want me to have them after everything that was said. You wanted to hurt me and you did. You got mad and angry but what was it that I did? I let you talk it out and realized that's all that needed to be said. You needed to get it out but you did let me explain how felt. I get it, you're mad but do you think I was not upset? I never got a chance to tell you my side, so hear is what I would've said:
I can't believe I am saying this but we actually met again. We met again this summer, but I must admit I was nervous. I mean it's been three years since! Do you remember? Oh how can you forget, it was a summer to remember. I do have many regrets, I don't think we knew how to act. You stayed silent and I did too. Should we have talked about it? Should I have asked you about the last letter you sent? I wish I did now but what good is in regret. I mean, look at it from my point of view, you've changed so much and now I don't even know you. Who have you become? What happened to my friend? Let me tell you what happened to me and I hope you will comprehend. I was so nervous to see you, I think I had butterflies too. I didn't know what to do, should I hug or should I just smile and say nice to see you, my old friend. Of course we hugged, after everything that is the least we could do. When I first saw you, I forgot everything I had planned to do. You opened your arms and I just couldn't wait to hug you. Ah, the relief from being in the arms of someone I knew. You kept smiling and shed some tears too. I can't imagine what you thought that night, and I wish I do. I didn't see your kid till the second day but he was so adorable I love him too. Seeing your wife was interesting, and I don't think we'll be friends soon. I thought things would be like before, I call you but you ignored. You didn't answer my calls and didn't seem interested in anything I said. You were mainly cold and dry but was that how you dealt? I decided to leave you alone and just let things go, which I did. Fast forward to the day I left, I wanted my pictures from the summer before. Did you really not know where they went? I think you didn't want me to have them after everything that was said. You wanted to hurt me and you did. You got mad and angry but what was it that I did? I let you talk it out and realized that's all that needed to be said. You needed to get it out but you did let me explain how felt. I get it, you're mad but do you think I was not upset? I never got a chance to tell you my side, so hear is what I would've said:
How do you think I have been? Do you think I am happy loosing my best friend?
I trusted you and told you everything but you can't even listen.
You gossip about me now but what good is it.
Do you feel better talking about an old friend?
I would never say anything even if I'm dead.
What did you send me?
What was in the letter that I should've read.
Should've but didn't cause I was too scared then.
Couldn't you stay my best friend?
I still needed you but you weren't there till the end.
I didn't forget about you this summer, but I am no longer a kid.
You should grow up too and maybe then
Maybe,
We can still be friends.
Can we?
Or is this now the end?
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