Abandonment issues

Well, I am no longer in denial. Yes I have "abandonment issues" but how does that effect me? For starters, I can't stand silence for long, I worry the people I love and care about will leave me at the first sign of trouble or anything else for that matter. I am a prisoner of people. I am attached to people. I love to have people around me. I worry about the condition of the people in my life. Let me make it clear, only a small number of people that I really love is what I worry about. I have become vulnerable and nothing anyone says or does changes my mind. Have I proven my case? The question is what am I going to do about it? Well, I am on a mission to do my own therapy with much needed help from Allah, Alhamdulillah. It is actually working out pretty good I must say. So for starters I narrowed it down to a list of  the most important person in my life to the lesser important person and focus on that person first, going slowly. I started a fast, a fast of talking, approaching  or even talking (well, I tried) about that person for a month. How did that go you might ask? I'm about 2 weeks into this.At first I thought I can do this, I CAN DO THIS!! After 5 days and that person hasn't called or anything I started wondering, is my relationship coming to an end? Oh Allah can I do this? But I told myself "No! You will do this! Even if the relationship ends! You won't quite" So I didn't. I started to watch more lectures, especially by Sheikh Omar Suleiman, and I didn't feel as vulnerable and attached anymore. I was becoming ok and more "stable". To my shock the person actually sent me a message!! I know I was shocked but did I reply? Heck no! I still have 2 weeks to go. I need to do this and I can't worry about the relationship breaking apart. It shouldn't if the person really cares about me and wants me in their life. I need them to be in my hand and not in my heart because the only One who should be in my heart is Allah, and Alhamdulillah.
Let me know if you'd like an update on how this goes and what Lectures I'm watching :)