I now know what I wanna do on this blog!

    Salam Everyone!
Sorry I know I said in my last post that I had some great postings and that I was post soon but my laptop broke a day before school, go figure! Insha'allah I will try to post something today. I have been doing a lot of thinking to exactly what I want to post on this blog and I know now! I want to post things that matter to me right now so when I look back years from now I can see where I was and what really mattered to me. I have been going through a lot lately but Alhamdulillah I am getting through. I am so happy to see the viewers from Russia, Germany, Japan, and so many other places! That is so cool and I hope you will enjoy my posts coming up!
         Jazakum Allah Khair,
                                Curious one.

Writing mode

Salams everyone! Sorry I haven't posted anything in a while but insha'allah I will be soon. A lot has happened and I have so many things I want to share.. Subscribe to get updates when I have a new post! Alright I gotta catch some sleep now :-)

Settlin'

   When you reach that age of maturity, guys start coming to your Dad cause their interested in marrying you. When I was a little girl, my dad told me your never gonna get married. So I told all the old ladies that said they wanted me for their son that I'm not getting married. Once I turned 16, my sister was 18 years old, so guys were interested in her. I was completely shocked! My dad was telling me for all those years that we're not gonna get married and here he is telling my sister about guys. You might think it's stupid for me to believe my dad when he told me that but I did, you don't question your father, right?


    Now that I am old enough, my dad is always telling me about proposals. He hasn't told me about someone that I would be interested in. My friends are all telling me not to be so picky and reject every guy. But is it better I marry someone just to please the people around me? or because I need to stop being choosy?
I am not the type of girl that does what people tell me to do, or need the opinion of others to make a decision. I mean, really! Why do girls have to settle for less?
  
   Oh and the best part is they scare you with stories of girls that never got married because of this. They don't ever mention the beautiful stories of girls that waited for the right guy that meets their standards and are happy now.
  
  I guess I'm just frustrated with hearing that guys are never too old to get married but girls basically have an expiration date.
For me I rather not get married than marry someone just out of fear of never finding someone that is truly right for me.


   Only Allah knows what the future holds, and Insha'allah I'll marry the right guy for me.

People change

"Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go."

Today I was standing behind my dad as he was making something while talking to me and I realized something. I realized my dad has changed. I don't know why I just thought of it but I did. I started thinking to myself how my dad isn't the person he was when I was a little girl. True I have changed too, as I am an "Adult" now but still. He looks at things from all angles now and is much more calmer. I know I have changed too, even though it is a bit harder to pinpoint exactly how different I am or how I have grown and matured. I don't like change much and I am not a great adapter but I guess it depends on what's changing; if it's for the better or worse. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze a moment and the people in it so I can enjoy them but it doesn't work that way. I have a hard time letting go of people even when I know it's time to move on.

"Seeing people change isn't what hurts. What hurts is remembering who they used to be."

This is one of my favorite songs when I am feeling a bit tired or just not doing so good. This is actually a good dua' to make as well. I just feel uplifted and at ease when I hear this song. Insha'allah I hope you enjoy it too. :)

You'll be FINE

I think movies and general public opinions give us- especially girls- the wrong idea about making it in life. Growing up I watched all the Disney movies and I love them but unfortunately they don't have the right message. All of them have a similar theme : A poor girl in distress, her prince charming comes saves her and all her troubles are solve and they live happily ever after. So far from reality, first of all there is no such thing as a prince charming, your problems disappearing or happily ever after. YOU are your own prince charming, YOU are your own problem solver, YOU are your own happily ever after and YOU are the only person that can help YOU! Nothing like the movies, right?

Islam is all about taking action and that also goes for your situation. You will never get anywhere waiting around for someone to help you cause nobody will. Besides you will feel much better when you overcome your own difficulty. One of the hardest things for girls and women is to be there own hero, why not you? Why wouldn't you? One of my goals is to be someone and that means different things for different people. For me, it means being able to support myself and make a difference in someones life by being the best I can be and inspiring others.

I refuse to live in some one's shadow, I refuse to be abused by another human being, I refuse to depend on anyone other than myself, and I refuse to loose myself and who I am meant to be. It all starts by believing, having that little bit of faith with determinations goes a long way. You are never alone, no one is even in the darkest of times. Allah is with you, always and forever. That is the only forever you can count on, Allah alone will be with you no matter what. I have heard the saying many times:

" Don't depend on anyone other than Allah, for even your shadow leave you in the dark."

It's true. You should ask yourself : What would I do if I WASN'T afraid? and that is what you should do. Be brave! You can do it!Don't wait around for prince charming and you'll be fine :)

The princess diaries--lesson learned-- Courage.

     A while back when I still had time to do nothing, I watched the princess diary probably for the third time. I kinda skimmed through it since I don't usually like to watch a movie agian unless there is nothing else on. I was watching the scene where Mia decides to run away and ends up finding a letter her dad wrote her for her birthday under her cat. The advice he wrote in the letter was really good.

 "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all. From now on you'll be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to allow yourself to make the journey."

      Out of no where this quote came back to me. Well only " Courage is not the absence of fear". I have a few ideas why, it's a great definition of true courage and letting go of fear. I am one to give into fear, I over analyse things sometimes and scare myself from taking risks. As weird of a combination as it may be, I also dare myself. I dare myself to say something, I dare myself to talk to someone and so on. But I don't think I have ever really taken a risk on something. What this means for me is that even though something scares you but you know it is a good thing to do then you need to remember what being couragious really means. You have two options : 1. You chicken out and decide its too risky, or 2. You realize the importance of taking that step forward and decide to take it. You gotta remeber what life is about, making the journey. Not reaching the desitination or accomplishing something of importance, it is partially that but not the main thing.

      Too often we forget the value and gift of everyday life, every minute and get caught up with achieving a goal or posessing something. It's good to have goals but you have to still live, make memories, and enjoy everyday at the same time. It has been said many times that life is too short, so start living yours with courage.