People change

"Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go."

Today I was standing behind my dad as he was making something while talking to me and I realized something. I realized my dad has changed. I don't know why I just thought of it but I did. I started thinking to myself how my dad isn't the person he was when I was a little girl. True I have changed too, as I am an "Adult" now but still. He looks at things from all angles now and is much more calmer. I know I have changed too, even though it is a bit harder to pinpoint exactly how different I am or how I have grown and matured. I don't like change much and I am not a great adapter but I guess it depends on what's changing; if it's for the better or worse. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze a moment and the people in it so I can enjoy them but it doesn't work that way. I have a hard time letting go of people even when I know it's time to move on.

"Seeing people change isn't what hurts. What hurts is remembering who they used to be."

This is one of my favorite songs when I am feeling a bit tired or just not doing so good. This is actually a good dua' to make as well. I just feel uplifted and at ease when I hear this song. Insha'allah I hope you enjoy it too. :)

You'll be FINE

I think movies and general public opinions give us- especially girls- the wrong idea about making it in life. Growing up I watched all the Disney movies and I love them but unfortunately they don't have the right message. All of them have a similar theme : A poor girl in distress, her prince charming comes saves her and all her troubles are solve and they live happily ever after. So far from reality, first of all there is no such thing as a prince charming, your problems disappearing or happily ever after. YOU are your own prince charming, YOU are your own problem solver, YOU are your own happily ever after and YOU are the only person that can help YOU! Nothing like the movies, right?

Islam is all about taking action and that also goes for your situation. You will never get anywhere waiting around for someone to help you cause nobody will. Besides you will feel much better when you overcome your own difficulty. One of the hardest things for girls and women is to be there own hero, why not you? Why wouldn't you? One of my goals is to be someone and that means different things for different people. For me, it means being able to support myself and make a difference in someones life by being the best I can be and inspiring others.

I refuse to live in some one's shadow, I refuse to be abused by another human being, I refuse to depend on anyone other than myself, and I refuse to loose myself and who I am meant to be. It all starts by believing, having that little bit of faith with determinations goes a long way. You are never alone, no one is even in the darkest of times. Allah is with you, always and forever. That is the only forever you can count on, Allah alone will be with you no matter what. I have heard the saying many times:

" Don't depend on anyone other than Allah, for even your shadow leave you in the dark."

It's true. You should ask yourself : What would I do if I WASN'T afraid? and that is what you should do. Be brave! You can do it!Don't wait around for prince charming and you'll be fine :)

The princess diaries--lesson learned-- Courage.

     A while back when I still had time to do nothing, I watched the princess diary probably for the third time. I kinda skimmed through it since I don't usually like to watch a movie agian unless there is nothing else on. I was watching the scene where Mia decides to run away and ends up finding a letter her dad wrote her for her birthday under her cat. The advice he wrote in the letter was really good.

 "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all. From now on you'll be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to allow yourself to make the journey."

      Out of no where this quote came back to me. Well only " Courage is not the absence of fear". I have a few ideas why, it's a great definition of true courage and letting go of fear. I am one to give into fear, I over analyse things sometimes and scare myself from taking risks. As weird of a combination as it may be, I also dare myself. I dare myself to say something, I dare myself to talk to someone and so on. But I don't think I have ever really taken a risk on something. What this means for me is that even though something scares you but you know it is a good thing to do then you need to remember what being couragious really means. You have two options : 1. You chicken out and decide its too risky, or 2. You realize the importance of taking that step forward and decide to take it. You gotta remeber what life is about, making the journey. Not reaching the desitination or accomplishing something of importance, it is partially that but not the main thing.

      Too often we forget the value and gift of everyday life, every minute and get caught up with achieving a goal or posessing something. It's good to have goals but you have to still live, make memories, and enjoy everyday at the same time. It has been said many times that life is too short, so start living yours with courage.

Always remember this..

Always remember you might be able to fool everyone you know and strangers too, but you can't fool Allah and you can't fool you. So what's the point of talking, acting and doing something just so people can view you in a certain way or for them to approve of you.The only approval and acceptance you should look for is Allah's and yours. By doing so you actually hit two birds with one stone. You have pleased Allah,You please your parents, and you are contet with who you are, and automatically you attract the right people in your life and they are honored and happy to be with you.

A friendship quote

" the older we get you realize that having a lot of friends isn't important but to have true friends is what you look for and treasure".

Time to set my priorities straight..

So this month has been crazy for me. Work, school and life. My sister says that these things are just bumps in my road but I wish I could see it that way right now. Maybe in the future insha'allah. I am swamped with school and to add to all that is going on, something happened yesterday. I took my dog to the vet because he was limping and since he's a German Shepherd I was worried it might be hip displaysia. Well even though I was going in with this possibilty in my head, I wasn't ready for that possibility to become reality. My dog has minor HD but sever Bon deterioration in his lower back which is even a bigger problem. I'm not sure how to deal with this fully but for now I am taking it one day at a time, one vet visit at a time. I am not really concerned about the vets idea of how long my German Shepherd will live because that of course is only known by Allah but I pray that he won't be in pain and will live a healthy life. Some people think that this is feeling too much for a pet but is there any limit on how much you can love your friend,family, or strangers? Then why should there be a "limit" for pets? I see it as an ammana that Allah has given me and I must do the best I can to take care of it. I am feeling guilty for all the times I didn't walk him but alhamdulillah, insha'allah he'll be just fine.